A cold ending…

It is so crazy how relationships end. Despite the magical beginnings of fireworks and love-at-first-sights, there is sometimes that moment when the fire dies. Even though there are times where you try to hold on to that fire for as long as you can, swearing that it’s still there, but just needs to be fueled by more dates and time together. If you were truly being honest with yourself, you would come to realize that the fire has already been extinguished and all you’re holding onto is the warmth that the fire gave that will eventually be gone as it fights against the cool breeze of the world. And when that cold seeps into your pores and hugs you like a scratchy blanket, you finally realize that the relationship is over. All that is left of a once burning relationship is just a smoke of happy memories and of what was .

When it rains….

Jenny: Do you want to know why I love the rain?

Carrie: Why?

Jenny: It makes me feel alive again. No matter where I am at in my life, the rain is the one thing that can make everything better and feel real. You know I once read somewhere that when it rains in literature, it is a sign of a rebirth. And since then, I have always believed that when it rains, it’s God giving me a second chance. I haven’t figured out on what yet, but it’s a second chance that I’m willing to take (laughs breathlessly). It’s funny that despite everything science says about there not being a God or some other higher being out there, I just can’t help but believe that there is someone out there rooting for me when it rains. And I know it sounds crazy, but that’s what the rain does, it makes people crazy. Some people become crazy drivers, others are reborn, and I…I gain hope that there is something more than the evil of the world

Lost…

Despite my strong hatred of people telling me who I am or who I am supposed to be, I have listened to them and changed so much that I don’t even recognize myself anymore. I still remember the person that I used to be, and I miss that person, but for some reason I can’t bring that her back and don’t even know where to begin to try.

High school…

There are some days that I miss it…the hustle and bustle of high school, because even though it could get stressful with the classwork and preparing for college, everything was still carefree and worry-free. The difference between high school and the real word is that you were given moments to be free and a kid. Girls could dress up and become the princesses that always wanted to be during school dances, while guys could have the chance of being the leaders they were raised to be, whether that be as captain of the football team or captain of the chess team. Yes, high school had it’s hard times, but those rare moments that you felt like you found your life-long friends or felt one step closer to your purpose in life, those are the moments that make me miss high school.

Different conversations…

With the many people that walk into your life, you are bound to have millions of conversations, even if it as small as just saying Hello to each other. But despite the millions of people and the millions of conversations, it will always be that one conversation with the one person you can’t live without. While this conversation might be said differently among the millions of different people you may meet, it all means the same when that one person says that words: I will always love and promise to spend the rest of my life with you. 

Surprise feelings…

Jack: Jenny, I have a confession to make. It’s so crazy, because I have never felt this before, but I….

Jenny: It’s so crazy, because you have no idea how I feel about you. But I also don’t want you to. I am not one of those people, who pine over their crushes just wishing they returned the feelings that I have, in hopes that they will confess first, so that I am not the nervous and possibly embarrassed one. No , I do not want you to confess your feelings to me, because even though there is a strong part of me that says “I love you” now, I know that it is only temporary and that this is only a crush. So please do not confess this “surprising” feelings you have towards me, because I like where we are right now and I don’t want that to change, because of “spur of the moment” feelings.

Jack: But what if my feelings are real?

Jenny: Then I am sorry, because I will probably never feel the same way. I am sorry Jack, but you are my best friend and will always just be my best friend

Jack: I understand. And even though these feelings may not go away,  as yours apparently will, you are also my best friend and I would rather have that than nothing at all. 

To see her smile,

To see the shock on her face isn’t what made Jeremy happy, it was knowing that he was able to make a girl who had been so sad, be happy. Even if it was for only that day. He had worked so hard and had to jump through so many hurdles to make sure today was possible and that one look on her face made up for all of that. Even if he doesn’t get to do this again, he will be able to die happy knowing that he made the sad girl at the end of the block finally smile.

A Forever Best Friend…

When it was time to leave and say goodbye, the only thing Sara wanted to bring with her, that she couldn’t, was her dog, because as much as she loved her family and friends, it was her dog who had been there through the very hard and greatest moments of her life.

A new chapter…

In the bathroom, Jenny sat thinking about how, by walking out, her whole life was going to change and about how she didn’t want it to. It’s not that she didn’t want to get married, she just felt comfortable with the way things were now. The fact that she didn’t have to sleep on certain sides of her bed or that she didn’t have to care about where she put the clean dishes. She wasn’t ready to get married, but hearing her fiancée’s voice on the other side of that door, she couldn’t help but feel excited, because she knew that she loved him and wanted to spend her life with him and no matter what happened, she knew that with him things could only get better.

No regrets…

Even though life comes with regrets, those regrets should not dictate your life.

 

To the future…

It was at times like this she wondered if everything that she was doing was going to be worth it. She was never the kind of person who would dream of what their life would be like 5 years from now, but the knowledge of the unknown still scared her. However, when her thoughts began to fill with the “what if”s and “is it really worth it”s, she pulled herself back by thinking about Jack, the one person who could do just that; keep her in the present, despite her dark past. So when she heard the church bells ring, she knew that if she was going to have any kind of future it was going to be with him.

Pretty cool….

Carrie: Who was that friend of your?

John: You mean Jenny?

Carrie: Yeah, I like her.

John: She is pretty cool huh?

 

As John said this, he began to think of all the things that made Jenny “cool”, like the way she always had a smile on her face even though life seemed pretty hard from his perspective. She was always nice to complete strangers and sometimes cruel to her closest friends (he still didn’t understand the concept of that). Or even how she always ate her pizza with the crust first, because, according to her, the crust was the best part of the pizza. It was at that moment that John came to the conclusion that Jenny was the coolest person that he knew. 

Good eating…

Everything tastes better with cheese, bacon, and/or deep-fried

Forever…

Everyone says that forever does not exist, but being with you makes me think that they are wrong.

Walking in the right direction…

Seeing her walking down the aisle, he knew that she was the one he wanted to start a family with, travel the world and sit on their front porch-old and grey- watching the sunset.  She looked beautiful in her white dress and seeing her coming closer, he knew that he was never going to see anything more beautiful than her right at this moment, expect for maybe their own, future daughter walking down the aisle on her wedding day. As she approaches, he can remember all of the great moments that made the petty fights worth it and all of the hopes and dreams they talked about in bed together in the late hours of the night. The only problem was that she was not walking towards him, but towards another man, because he had let her go those many years ago. And if he had the chance to go back, he wouldn’t because no matter how happy they would be together, he knew that she would be much happier with another man.

Saying goodbye…

As the day got closer to when we had to say goodbye, it got harder and harder to hold back the tears, but I promised myself I would not cry when we actually had to say goodbye, so I’m not going to. But there is one thing that I refuse to do. I refuse to say goodbye, because I know we will see each other again, it might not be in the same circumstances, but we will see each other and while she may forget me, I will always remember her. Even though we will both eventually have to move on, this summer will always hold a special place in my heart.

A little of both…

Mr. Boseman: You are what you say you are , so if you are shy (which 90 percent of you will probably say that you are), I’m looking for the 10 percent who is willing to say “I’m not shy”. And don’t try to lie people, these pens and pencils were specifically designed to weed out all the liars, since none of us like liars…..You young man, it said that you lied about being shy why would you do that?

Nate: In all honesty sir, it was to one call your bluff and two because I really did not want this job, since there are no shy people being hired.

Mr. Boseman: Why would you care? What is the benefit of hiring shy people they have no business in PR, this is a talking person’s job.

Nate: For starters, sir, shy people know what most people want, because most people are shy, like you just said. In addition, the reason why most people are shy is because if they were outgoing they would be too honest and no matter what the job is every staff needs a few honest people.

Mr. Boseman: I guess you are right, young man what is your name?

Nate: Nathaniel Waters sir.

Mr. Boseman: Well, Mr. Nathaniel Waters, I am going to hire you any way and allow you to create your own team full of shy and outgoing people to create an amazing advertisement for this new client the company is trying to get how would feel about that?

Nate: I would gladly appreciate it and won’t let you down sir. 

Thinking….

He sat in silence, looking like he was reading a book, but secretly he was thinking about her. Thinking about the way she laughed and smiled every time he saw her. Thinking about how no matter how busy her life became or famous she will ever become, she will always care about the little things in life like children laughing in the park or birds flying through the trees. But little did he know that this same girl, the girl who he thought was the most amazing person in the world, was standing right behind him, staring at him pretending to read this book. She thought everything that he was thinking, but about him; nevertheless, while she was thinking about this, she also thought about their future together and them walking along the beach old and gray. It was at that very moment he knew what question he wanted to ask her and she knew the perfect answer to it.

Your life…

Don’t try to make an excuse for why things might not being going your way or how much your life might suck right now, because everything you have done or will do is based off the choices you made or will make, so I’m sorry if you are prone to making stupid decisions, it is your life I guess.

Staying up…

No matter how tough her day was or how tired she had become, Ciara always stayed up late just to see her husband’s face before she went to bed. She enjoyed the little conversations they had every morning when he walked in, but she always looked forward to seeing his face and his eyes brighten when he saw her.

On the mornings when she would miss him, due to not being able to stay up, her whole day was ruined, because she had to wait until the next morning to see his face. While she was happy with the job choice that he chose, since it did pay the bills and he was enjoying what he was doing, she couldn’t help but hate his job, because it always kept him away from her and it was getting harder and harder to see his face in the morning with the new baby and all. Ciara couldn’t wait until the day when they are old and gray and she can see his face whenever she wanted to.

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